God’s Salt & Light

i pray to God…that a miracle would happen. Not to me. But to someone else. Someone i dearly would love to get to know Christ and The Father. To be saved, to be led into the light, to stand righteous, to accept the Lord into her heart and we can see each other in Heaven one day and enjoy eternity together as one family, Gods family. I pray she will realize it b4 its too late……a miracle. I have faith in the Lord. But it will be tested against all measures, measures that a ruler or scale can never ever measure. I have alredy been tested. It wasnt easy, but i’ll go thru it as best as i can. I always remind myself of Phillipians 4:13. NOt everytime does it go into my head, but at times it does. One way or the other, i will hope for that day when i hear a good news. And rejoice in the Lord for he answered my prayer. But till that day, i will keep waititng…….and praying………

weird…i just remebered -sumthing from my english exam. When i think about it……i realized that God was actually trying to tell me His word thru the exam! Of all places and of all times…..in my exam! Thankfully it was english…..i could afford to read it over and over ……heh heh. I was surprised at wat text came out in the exam…..part A comprehension and part D cloze passage.  Part A was a passage about how to live happily.  And words almost fitted with tat of the Bible, just in a very general form. But enough for me to understand the entire context of the passage. I shud live life in the present, not in the past and the future. The future we will never know. God knows. So wat for we worry bout the future and be so wooried about it? Tomorrow has its own worrys. So i just leave it to Gods wat he wants to do with my future. I can only hope and pray for the best. And i shud just accept who i am and be contempt wit it. No point comparing myself wit the lights of Peter Tok and Cheng Lin Foong, ther’re a different breed. I am a different breed. And i have my own SHAPE.

The cloze test was even more eye opening to me. It was about a father wanting to show how poor ppl are in the farm to his young son. They spent a night in the farm. after they got back the father asked his son, "Did u see how poor those ppl were?". "Wat did u observe?" he asked again. Then his son replied, "Yes dad, i saw that we have one dog, they have 4; we have a porch, they have a whole field; we have imported lights, they have the stars; we have a window, they have the whole horizon; we have a pool in the yard, they have an endless creek in their back yard." He added. "Thanks dad for showing how poor we are!!!". and i learned that material possesion isnt everything. It is the way we perceive our life and the way we live it.  And if we have no spirit, life is useless and not meaniful at all.

So God spoke to me in that way in the exam! I laughed at the matter for a good day or two….and i think not many will realize it. They will be just concerned at aswering the question and not bother abt the contents and message of the passage. Luckily for me i had that ability. Praise God. Amen!

You know…..sometimes its easy to forget that everything is in gods hands….well for me anyway. Dont know bout u guys. BUt there are tests, i feel, that will really put u at wits end. U can do a thing. u dont even know what to do, how to do, where to do, when to do and why. I know it….i know the tests will come in many forms and varities…if u will… And i guess i have stumbled upon the first major one of them all……to God it may seem simple…but its sure as tough as a walnut to me.

Here’s the thing…..how would you respond to sumthing u really like, albeit money. Like chocolate or candy or a puppy or kitten or what ever. Then u find out there may be complications with wat u like if u go ahead and get to know them closer. Your dog pees on the couch, the kitten scratches your precious 18th century sofa…the chocalate isnt sweet enuf, and the candy melted immedietely after u opened the wrapper. Discouraging and rather saddening rite? But will u try to make it up with what little or what ever short comings or challenges and problems u face and try to work it out? Will u try and give it your all to train that puppy and kitten to behave? Will u add some sugar to the chocalate? Will u eat ur candy in a 10 degree room just so u can enjoy the candy in its glory and splendour form? It may seem little and these problems…but often are the most frustrating one one earth, thats for sure!

wat is God trying to say or teach me? Or wat is He trying to prove to me? I am waiting for His answer….someday anytime within the next 2 weeks would be good! I do realize life here isnt forever. I came to grips with that when i came to know Christ 2 months ago. I know wat awaits for me in heaven. And i know why i am here. i am still finding out my purpose in life to prepeare for eternity. Maybe i have already found some……others still need to be found. God knows my worst enemy is decision making. I am admitting it to the open public(read my fist blog). It is my weakness. I cant say enough how many tough decision making situations i have been in. And when i say tuff, i really mean, TUFF!

Its really a long story for me to tell here. So if u guys out there who think u can help me, please feel free to do so. Practically crying out for help here. Funny…..a sarcastic guy can cry out for help to help him be less sarcastic. But sarcastic ppl dont even know their own level of sarcasm! Just like crazy ppl dont know they are crazy. They think they are normal to themselves.  Well at least i know im not crazy…or am i?

Well, in view of this year being a dog year, i want to stress something. This year no dogs on earth shud ever be tortured, mistreated, mishandled, uncared for, unloved, unfed, unbathed, unurinated,force fed,force bathed,force loved, forced vomitted, forced f**ked, or even force trianed. We shud respect the dogs this year and let them be as they are and deserves. HEY didnt we learn to let lying dogs lie, sleeping dogs sleep, eating dogs eat, and so on…..??? So TREAT YER DOGS NICE THIS YEAR!!!!! Or else….

haih……my first blog…..boring isnt it? well im not a fancy guy, well at least not fancy in blogging. I just wanna get stuff outta my head so that the general public(and pubic) can read my blogs and mock me night and day all year long till the end of time….I should be grateful even if an ant reads my blog and laughs its tiny little ass off……sheesh…..

Finally done with english exam today. Air cong & fridge on wednesday wasnt too bad either. Thankful i am to the Lord. I prayed like about 6 or 7 times i think that i wont get so nervous and the questions wont be that hard. Guess He was listening after all…..now i gotta worry for another 4 subject. And the funny thing is, i dont feel worried….i dont know what the heck i should feel….scared, sad, happy, anxious,angry or what…….Probably i’ve already cast them on to God and He has taken them away from me….but i do get tiny flies in my belly b4 the paper starts.

Dang….i cant be home for new year. Sorry guys and gals who wanted me to be back so much….nt my fault that im not coming back. I have reasons…which i think u all need not to know……

So muc hfor my 1st  blog. hopefully the 2nd one will be even more dreadful, sad, sarcastic, obscene,profane,disgusting,wacky,weird,insane,inhumane and down right dirty…..cant wait…..(yawn….)