God’s Salt & Light

Last nights supper at 3am in the morning

2 soft boiled eggs and 4 slices of bread

I dipped the bread in the egg and ate……..YUMMY!!!!

U guys shud really try this stuff, it rockzx!

"But know this, that in the  last days of perilous times will come :

For men(man and woman) will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boasters,

proud, blasphemers,  disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy,

unloving, unforgiving, slanderers, without self-control, brutal, despisers of good,

traitors, headstrong, haughty, lovers of pleasure than lovers of God,

having a form of godliness but denying its power. And from such people turn away!

For of this sort are those  who creep into households and make captives of gullible

women loaded down with sins, led away by carious lusts

Always learning and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth."

*This Bible verse came to me as an important information to u all. It shows that times will change and people will change into selfish lustful and sinful selves. This is the prophecy of the Bible 2000 years ago. The world is nearing the End Times. The world will be destroyed soon after God judges all of us. He will come in His glory from heaven and no one will escape it. Salvation still waits for all of you.

Todays lunch

1) 1 bowl of cornflakes with strawberry flavored milk

2) 1 soft boiled egg

3) Manggo Yogurt

Todays dinner

1) 1 corn cob

2) Biskits

Todays meal!

Today i had bread for lunch.

2 pcs - butter + jam
2 pcs - butter + jam
2 pcs - butter + black pepper

Thats rite……..u heard me……….butter n black pepper………..and its so nice! =)

Kinda addictive too………

Its been a while since i last blogged. Kinda weird feelings again. This is very very unusual of me. Its near exams. And im no where prepared frankly. Erm, sometimes i get tat lost motivation to study. I wonder if its me or somethings else.

And yet, im supposed to be trembling wit fear and anxious, yet im not. Wonder why. Gods peace probably. But will He give peace to ppl who dont do work properly? I mean, im kinda lost. I knw He will guide me back. Bro n sis in Christ, do help me yah.

Well according to Jason Wong(who has started calling me Pinarello…which i dont mind actually) either im the sprinter or marathon runner in studies. Well i am a marathoner physically but i tink i do the 100 dash in studies. If Asafa Powell is 9.79……mine will be much faster than him, but its a risky business i might fall along the way.

Anyways, another thing i seem to not understand (and no one else in this world) is Gods yearning to always reconnect. He’s so persistent in that. No one is as persistent as God when it comes to relationships. MY spiritual walk has been OK only to be honest. But always for the past 1 month i went to service on Sunday….God still touches my heart. I end up in tears…….

Today’s Praise Celebration (2/9/07) was the most "hardest hit" when i seem at my lowest point. I tot tat God wud want to teach me a lesson (aka a good "smiting" or "backlashing" of my spirit) maybe tru Pastor Davids preaching. I tot it will be a word tat will cut into my soul divide my spirit and make me feel so guilty tat i will repent (tat kinda feeling which is never really enjoyable… :P).  Today Ps david talk abt praises and worship…..coming to the Holy of Hollies……which is the very presence of God when we worship.

*Heres wat it feels like in my interpretation to be in the presence of God.  Alright, imagine the Agong came to your house and standing in front of u right now. How wud u feel? Nervous? In awe? Shaking? Fear? Tremble? Speechless? You feel like u have nothing u can do but  bow down and probably utter some of those Royal formality mumbo jumbos. Well thats in the presence of the Agong. In the presence of God, u get 10 to the power of 1,000,000,000,000 of tat feeling. Its indescribable. And u will feel even more powerless on what u shud do. Well, rest assured God wont chop of ur head if u say something wrong. After all, He’s caring and loving.   

Well today, God was present. Surprise! Caught me off guard and i just broke down and shed tears for a good 5 minits. This crying is not a crying of sadness. Its a crying tat says "God is here and He is in me still". The song written by Henry Seeley (Planetshakers) "Take Me" was such a song tat spoke to me today.

And i found myself tat i miss God all this while. Just tat i havent talked much with Him. 

After service i still felt the "aftershocks" of God’s presence. He is after all, God =)

I hope God helps me this time in my exams. Erm, although it seems im relying and depending more on Him rather and doing less on my part. But James 1:5 is still in me. "For those who lack wisdom and asks for it, God shall give to him liberally without reproach." But still i have to do my part…..hope is enough. Gods grace is always sufficient for me. I wud really want to do well in this semester exams.  I need that cushion so tat i can fall on IF anything happens. Im not sure if God is working something in me and my life. Things just seem out of perspective at the moment.

Holy Spirit dont leave me. Forsake not my soul for i cry out from my heart and my soul who thirts for the living God.

God Bless those whom I care and love always.
- darrenZ -

Dear LORD,

S - Save
O - Our
S - Society

S - Save
O - Our
S - Spirit

S - Save
O - Our
S - Souls

This world, this nation needs u LORD. More than ever. Plz save them. Sobz.

Darren

If there is proof that God exists, i can be a testimony to that. Its been a real roller coaster of emotions especially the last 3 weeks.

Final exam for diploma was so so hard and i was unsure what will happen. If i didnt make it it would mean a waste of all my effort and waiting for another year. And i wont get to graduate this year.Mechanical Engineering i have to say is not easy but thats wat u get for studying a subject of such standard. And the odds were stacked against me with a resit paper. To further add salt to a wound, the 2 most important papers were on the same day. total of 5 hours of exam while i oni got 2 hours of sleep. It kills your brain.

Out of 240 ppl of my diploma course only 100 or so will make it to advance. Thats less than a 50/50 chance for me to go to advance which means a 50/50 chance tat i had/hadnt make it.

For 3 weeks of my holiday, everyday my mind was filled about this little bugging annoying thing that is my future. Well everyone has their anxieties, i have mine too. But i tried my best to keep myself positive. Not letting too much worries in. Everyday i make a little simple prayer to God ,"Let me pass my exams". Thats all i want. Sometimes i wanted to pass so badly its like im making a demand to God. I have been ignoring God for a bit honestly. Sometimes i never thought He would help me. Considering the amount of effort i put in. But i know my God is a merciful God, a forgiving God.

"Ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find , knock and it will be opened to you. " Matthew 7:7

Until yesterday 10am, i really was unsure of my future. These kind of things keeps u thinking more about life, a good thing infact, yet it adds the stress and tension that is sometimes unbareable.

Just with the click of a mouse button i was about to know my fate. And I had to double check what i saw cause i wanted to be absolutely sure i was seeing what i saw. Well, looks like i’ll be graduating soon. Coz i made the cut. *Phew*…….relief was my first reaction which lasted a couple of nanoseconds, then next instant was sheer jubilation. Its not everyday i get to see this result, so might as well be happy about it. I got my diploma. Finally after 2 years. And i was like so so thankful to God for answering my simple prayer. And it helps to pray before you start your exams too.

Now i can really get a shot at advanced diploma, the final 2 years. Hope all goes well. Man………………i made it. still having a tough time to accept the fact that i am one of the lucky(and blessed) ones.

Thank God.

well, this little topic came up yesterday when i was having lunch with a couple of my friends. Tat time we had finished our first main exam paper. Btw, which was ok i guess. Sure to pass. Not sure of the grades. Haha

Anyways….lunch was finished. Newspapers were out. Needed to relax after 2hrs of brain squeezing. Anyway….it all started innocently enough with……money.

Talking abt money was always a debatable issue for me. Lolz. I mean we jsut chatted abt our spending and stuff. wat we gona do after out exams and stuff and shit like tat.

And i was amazed how much money Jeff had to spend on. And he goes u knw…his father has his own business, money comes in all the time. Well. wat a happy family. unlike me. So u knw. money aint easy to come by. And if u wanna get ,married, well, u’ll be needing lots of it.  But my dear  friend here  says he  cant wait to get married.  And i said "Save up, u’ll need lots of it….". He goes "Oh? Ya meh?"

"Like duh! Ur the groom. u Gotta pay for all that stuff and things and who knws wat crap." "The wedding dinner, the tux, rental, house?"

Jeff goes "House? I rent lar"

"Look buddy, if ur gonna pay for RM1000 rent a month, id rather u buy a house. It will be yours after 30 years, if its a house in KL"

"30 years??!!!"

"Yeah, wat u expect? if ure gonna live in a rented house for 30 years u wud have paid RM360 000, so, get a house instead!"

"OH, ok ok"

Back to wedding expenses, "And dont forget the brides dowry"

Jayson agrees "Yah yah"

"At least 5 figures……..99999.99"  (*cant u girls skip the 99 cents???)

Jeff "WAh, so many meh? Need meh"

I said "Come on lar. its at least tradition. U duno meh?"

Jeff "No wor……..and need so much meh"

"Come on lar Jeff? U tink getting a wife is so easy meh? It takes blood sweat and tears man. U tink ur wife only cost RM10 meh? If tats the case by now everyone wud have got married! U cant expect ur wife to be so cheap…..Its not like u go to the Kedai RM2 and pay 2 bucks then u get ur wife! Haiyo, some more those stuff are made in China."

Jeff was speechlees…..

Anyways then we went on to family money, and Jeff comes in again,

"My money is also my mums money. And my dads money is my mums money. So My dads money is also my money. Coz we always share our spending like tat"

I came in….."………so your wife is also your dad’s wife?"

have u ever tried oatmeal? well for those who did and hated it coz of its bland taste, i knw wat u must have tasted. YucK! How can i eat this?! Ewe! I wasted a whole bowl! It looked yummy at the beginning.

well folks, heres wat i did to my oatmeal to make it more…..erm……interesting.

I tried the following:
1) Oatmeal + soft boil egg with pepper, soy sos n salt.
2) Oatmeal + softboil egg + baked beans
3) Oatmeal + baked beans
4) Oatmeal + milo powder + condensed milk
5) Oatmeal + kellogs Cornflakes + condensed milk
6) Oatmeal + cornflakes + condensed milk + milo powder
7) Oatmeal + cornflakes

u see, the possibilities n choices are endless. So, go make ur oatmeal really spiced up and enjoy a healthy meal. Btw, all those up there i tried within 3 days. Theres lots of things im gona add to the oatmeal soon. Tuna, sausages, chicken  curry, mutton curry, tomato sos, etc etc.

so, give it a try why dont u. U’ll be amazed at wat it will taste like
^^

Enjoy!

Life. Its a weird and funny thing isnt it. Haha. And i always get the short end of it. So it seems……..